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So I did get graduated in May so I am now Crystal Johnson Flinn B.S. It was so great to graduate. I was like: the campus is decorated for me! The music is playing for me! All these gifts are for me!! (that may have been the best part!JK) So now what? I walked the stage and they gave me the paper. I know everything now and don't know what to do. The problem is this I have a job that I love. I have coworkers that I love. I have an office I love. I have a shift that I love. I have a boss that I love. I have bennifites that I love. Get the point? I could take a job that has way less client contact and more money but would I have so manny things to love? I would really make more of a difference if I moved up but I would not get to see the client's face when the difference was made. Am I being selfish? Should I try for better paying jobs so that Chris and I would be more comfortable, and I could shop more. (Shopping is always a plus) Also we may only be in Whicita Falls untill Chris graduates in May so why get a new job then leave in less than a year? But Chris may get on to the police force here and then he would not graduate for two more years. So then it would be worth it. Oh and we are trying to have a baby now so if I got a different job then got pregnant the new boss may not be as kind as my current one is. I hate not having a plan. No I hate that I did not work the plan I had: 20- get marriend, 23- graduate with B.S., 24- have a baby & begin graduate school, 27- graduate with a M.A. & have baby #2. So I am 26 and no baby #1 and just now got the B.S. I know that most people who begin college do not finish so there is a good achomplishment but still I feel behind the curve. I feel confused and kind of stuck. Is it time for a new plan? Do I just go with the flow, or be planktoninc? Do I continue to drive Chris crazy with this baby stuff? Do I continue to drive Chris crazy with this plan stuff? Do I continue to drive Chris crazy with this collgege stuff? Well time to get ready to go to my wonderful job. I am blessed and behind all of this whining I know that. I have a degree, the best husband, wonderful family, fun and rewarding job, helpful and nice cowrkers, and a few great friends. The pathetic thing is this -
I WANT MORE!
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